tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-71982902024-03-06T21:51:09.205-08:00Searching for the NeedleThere is no needle. It is not the needle that needs finding, it is only yourself.
Here is where I voice all my internal struggles, questions, and curiosities. I'm hoping to look back one day and say to myself, "silly girl."Unknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger595125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7198290.post-74391218627433962952009-06-18T22:01:00.000-07:002009-06-18T22:42:07.823-07:00We got the beat!I've been slow to post the past couple weeks. The symptoms started a few weeks ago. I noticed I was much more tired and even needed naps after work. Tim had to step up a bit on weekends and help with tidying the house while I rested. Food lost all it's appeal for awhile because flavors just weren't appealing. The indigestion and light nausea didn't help. I lost a couple pounds from the lack of Unknownnoreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7198290.post-61463334003806636142009-06-07T22:27:00.000-07:002009-06-07T22:48:33.525-07:00Buying into "local"Living in California, I realize that my view of the world is considered "skewed" and sometimes whacky. What can I say, I've lived here since I was six, so it's just what it is. I'm not an extremist of any sort, but I do understand trying to do little things to keep our world a little healthier.Amongst our circle of friends, we believe in trading on Craigslist and Freecycle. We recycle and shop atUnknownnoreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7198290.post-2744429670909808392009-06-01T22:09:00.000-07:002009-06-01T22:09:00.220-07:00You want my job?The other evening, I met up with a friend. We're not super close, but we try to catch up with girlfriends for various job and personal chat. She was particularly interested in meeting this time for job search ideas. Her internship ends this summer and it's time to find a permanent job. Since I recently had success with my job search, she was curious to hear if I came across any interesting Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7198290.post-77962699368046817062009-05-30T14:49:00.000-07:002009-05-30T15:19:20.659-07:00Maximum capacityThe hubby and I hosted a small party last weekend. Besides having people over to help with the wedding favors, we really haven't had a party at our little place.When I bought my place, the one thing that I didn't realize was how small and inflexible the orientation of my living/dining room is. There are only two ways to fit a sofa and chair with a tv. That means we can't physically seat more thanUnknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7198290.post-12008053876643015972009-05-21T15:22:00.000-07:002009-05-21T15:32:40.385-07:00An Ostrich and MittensConcealed guns in national parks?I just get so mad when I see this stupid credit card interest bill making the rounds in the Congress and the Senate. I'm sorry but what the hell is a gun law going in the middle of a credit card law. THEY HAVE NOTHING TO DO WITH EACH OTHER!!!!!People should not be allowed to tack on such ridiculous ideas onto bills that are completely unrelated to each other. The Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7198290.post-23695660045776897392009-05-13T18:34:00.000-07:002009-05-11T18:27:35.992-07:00Back to the cubeIt's my third day on the job. I hate starting new jobs, not because I don't like the job but because I hate feeling like a stranger. Ever had that strange feeling that people aren't telling you something?My cube is decent, not fancy. The area is a mix of engineers, strategic planning, IT, and marketing. The cube farm is surrounded by conference rooms and offices. It's very frustrating because *Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7198290.post-85265336611937386622009-05-11T18:19:00.000-07:002009-05-11T18:28:41.728-07:00Gardeners that don't thinkI can home today wondering if I'd see the neighbor's cats. As I walked under the pergola to our front door, I realized that I forgot to duck. The little momma finch who's been nesting tends to fly away if we linger too long, too close to her nest. The nest, as I've probably mentioned before, is made from seed pods of some local tree that they intertwined with the jasmine vines that grow up the Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7198290.post-15545941194951324532009-05-07T12:06:00.000-07:002009-05-07T12:38:28.059-07:00Sticky fingersI couldn't help be amused by this article I saw today about tourists who returned an artifact they took as a sourvenir. I applaud them for returning it because it would be so easy to simply throw it away. I'm wondering if that means there are other souvenirs that they'll be mailing back home.Whenever we travel somewhere, I am definitely tempted to take a piece of nature home. Growing up near the Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7198290.post-9168143530051384302009-05-05T19:23:00.001-07:002009-05-05T19:32:55.089-07:00Picture windowI'm sitting here at the desk in our second bedroom. Tim almost never opens the window blinds because it's too much glare against his monitors. But now that it's after sunset and it's a nice day, I opened them up for some fresh air.It's also fun to sit here because there are so many birds about. Underneath our pergola is a finch nest. The birds cleverly built a nest by attaching it to the jasmine Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7198290.post-69592749411996632972009-04-30T18:23:00.000-07:002009-04-30T18:26:25.505-07:00One quick swoopI stepped out for a bit. At the last minute, I joined my family for a trip to China. Since my brother's never been, my parents decided to take him on a basic group tour. We haven't had a family trip since who knows when.At the time I bought the plant ticket, I decided that I might as well since no job offer was near. Suddenly, the day before the trip, I got an offer. I tried to negotiate a littleUnknownnoreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7198290.post-37696460292112397332009-04-20T14:18:00.000-07:002009-04-20T14:18:00.109-07:00The search may be overIt's amazing to think that I've not been working for nearly six months. Granted the first two I was still getting paid, but it was still time I didn't know what to do with myself.During the past month, I've had interview with two companies. The first company is a well-respected company in the area. They've been around for more than 25 years and accomplished huge things for their industry. As Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7198290.post-6940585506287243092009-04-17T21:02:00.000-07:002009-04-17T21:02:00.867-07:00On the clockDuring my follow up check after the D&C, we were given instructions about how to proceed. We were told I had to wait one menstrual cycle before we could try getting pregnant. That meant waiting until April.Back in college, I was dating this Catholic guy. We argued and discuss our future. One topic that lacked agreement was sex and contraception. I didn't mind waiting (and am soooooo glad he was Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7198290.post-27354055150311147662009-04-15T13:19:00.000-07:002009-04-16T12:48:41.674-07:00Dramatic rescueWe has some *major* wind the other day. As beautiful as the clear sky looked, the velocity of the wind combined with the cold made it a very unfun day to be outside.Late in the afternoon, I was standing in my kitchen drying the recently cleaned parts of my Cuisinart. A curly soap line has formed in the plunger element, and I needed to rinse and dry it.Standing at my sink, I have a pass-through Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7198290.post-14810698153665680952009-04-13T10:31:00.000-07:002009-04-15T08:03:22.891-07:00IndulgenceHappy Birthday to a few of my blogging buddies out there! I know you've just had or are about to celebrate another year.Tim and I celebrated my birthday over the weekend. (Ignore the year, it's not worth mentioning any more.) We started out by having a mellow morning wandering the local Farmers' Market. The weather was perfect, sunny and cool. We picked up some sweet strawberries and some blood Unknownnoreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7198290.post-44608636361990027752009-04-07T07:58:00.000-07:002009-04-07T09:50:41.701-07:00Just sickSince last week, there was some buzz about finding this missing girl in the Central Valley. We all know that as time passes, the chances of a happy ending fade fast. Unfortunately, last night, the search ended. Someone stuffed her into a suitcase and discarded her in a pond. I wonder if they counted on the fact that the dairy processor regularly drains the pond.http://www.cnn.com/2009/CRIME/04/07Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7198290.post-50541980364249999902009-04-01T23:36:00.000-07:002009-04-02T00:42:32.960-07:00If I had the skills thenOver the weekend, Tim and I attended our first wedding as a married couple. It was also interesting because they got engaged two months before us but had six months longer to plan the event. For me, this was a significant outing because it actually meant that I got to dress up.The bride, Chi, and I met years ago through mutual friends. We were both single gals living in the same city. She Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7198290.post-80886290602154229922009-03-23T17:13:00.000-07:002009-03-23T17:28:40.463-07:00Good for nowI had a phone interview the other day. It's for a fairly large, well-respected company in my industry. This was my second interview with the department, specifically I was talking with who I presume would be my supervisor.At the end of the interview, she wanted to assess my interest level in the job. This department and a sister department combined would basically described the job I've been Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7198290.post-30330153281923118372009-03-18T10:53:00.000-07:002009-03-18T11:20:58.202-07:00Back in the knowNot being able to watch television on our LCD the past couple weeks, Tim and I resorted to watching downloads from the Internet. We don't have cable, we don't have a DVR. A long time ago, when I lived alone, I made myself choose between paying for Internet or cable television. It just didn't make sense to live alone and pay for both. Clearly, I choose the Internet.Ever since, I've relied on an Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7198290.post-10897416637515972572009-03-16T12:24:00.000-07:002009-03-18T10:52:14.384-07:00Emerging nuggetsPart of my severance package includes two months of services from a career services firm. I was offered this at my last layoff as well, but never had a chance to try it out. Seeing as how much longer my unemployment could last, I figured I might as well explore what the firm had to offer.The two months of service include access to their online resources, free workshops, and eight hours of Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7198290.post-3681197320487822082009-03-10T14:21:00.000-07:002009-03-11T12:34:43.507-07:00Wimp in trainingI tried my best to treat the visit like any other appointment. I was pretty good about feeling normal as long as I didn't think about what had happened and what was about to happen.The office scheduled me for 1:45pm but told me to come in before 1:15pm so that I could take some medications to prepare me for the procedure. Tim left work at lunch to pick me up and drive me there. I had told him he Unknownnoreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7198290.post-15525935345629951842009-03-09T15:49:00.000-07:002009-03-09T17:19:41.626-07:00Cat-yaAfter all the time I've spent with my neighbor's cat, I can't help wonder what drives them. I've never been much of a pet person besides the random goldfish and beta that I kept as a teen. But how much do fish really count when they're really only good for looking at?Larger animals likes cats and dogs truly interact. They remember you, they show anger, they show love. My dad had a family beagle Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7198290.post-51068228061385071732009-03-02T10:12:00.000-08:002009-03-02T16:58:38.846-08:00Not humanI'm sitting here wanting to write something but find unsure what to say. At any given moment, I seem like a totally normal, happy person. I pay my bills, run errands, watch tv, cook, clean, chat with friends, eat, play with the neighbor's cat, and search for jobs. But when I stop to take in my surroundings and think about who I am, there's nothing there. I'm just going through the motions of whatUnknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7198290.post-21529035199056585832009-02-24T22:17:00.000-08:002009-02-24T22:46:57.846-08:00ScaredUnfortunately, my concerns were validated today. The doctor found my uterus to be smaller than what would be expected for someone at this time. She sent us to have an ultrasound performed. The referral sheet I took to the ultrasound office read, "Reason for ultrasound: Viability."In my heart, I already knew the answer. I feel like I've known for two weeks, but I just didn't have solid proof. It Unknownnoreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7198290.post-29516671157069519962009-02-24T08:47:00.000-08:002009-02-24T15:16:50.793-08:00RevealToday's the big day. Assuming the OB/GYN is not called to the hospital, we'll be driving to the office in a couple hours to find out about the baby.The past couple of days I've been a little nervous because I've been experiencing a tiny bit of blood. It's like that last day of a period when it looks like a streak of reddish-brown paint on a pantyliner. It shouldn't mean anything bad but it's Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7198290.post-32848812769219998342009-02-18T18:21:00.000-08:002009-02-18T18:36:10.515-08:00I've got a pennyI admit it... I couldn't resist when I read the blurb in the newspaper. Yes, I went to the website for the octuplets. It's so pathetic that I can't even garner the courage to post it here because I have such negative feeling about this woman.It's a simple page showing small pictures of each of the babies. It's all cutesy with crayons and hearts all over the page. There are only two buttons on theUnknownnoreply@blogger.com1